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For a start, you are not remotely alone.
You are part of a large minority that just happens to be invisible!
Femdom fantasies are incredibly common and the statistics slowly emerging show that a lot of kink goes on in people's lives behind closed doors.
If you look at the Irish Times(!) sex survey, a significant minority of people have done BDSM, with the percentage going up as they get younger. A recent Prague study also indicated that something like a quarter of couples are female led (though not necessarily in a kinky way). Finally a Canadian sex survey showed nearly half of men to have Femdom fantasies (and just under half of women).
You are also not damaged goods doomed to be alone.
All the modern evidence suggests that your BDSM orientation is largely unaffected by early life experience. If you read Gloria Brame's Different Loving Too, you'll also see that Femdom - and D/s in general - is also completely compatible with living an otherwise normal life and with being as dominant as you want outside the bedroom. That's my experience too. And those surveys strongly suggest that there are women out there who will play with you, if only you go looking.
Finally, kink makes you feel socially indestructible! Nothing that can happen at work, for example, can be as humiliating as what your domme might do to you on a regular basis...
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