Here's an excerpt from my work in progress, "How to be a
vanilla dominatrix." This is all about how to enjoy
being a vanilla dominatrix. Let me know what you think...
HOW TO BE BAD
In an ideal - male fantasy - world, your partner could hand you a whip, put you in charge. Your dark side would take over and you'd instantly become a terrifying yet sensual dominatrix.
This isn't of course very common. If you're reading this book, you're probably not one of those vanishingly rare natural dominatrices. This is probably a good thing, since it's you your partner loves, not some latex fantasy.
However - again - since you're reading this book, you're obviously open to experimenting with Femdom in ways that are mutually satisfying.
That means you have the problem of how to be bad.
There are two approaches to this.
You could treat the fantasies as a menu. You can look over the menu - his or your fantasies, or ideas from erotica or fetish forums - and pick the onces you fancy. It's certainly worth a try. Unfortunately, it's not always clear why you would enjoy a particular activity, and the activities themselves don't always hang together naturally.
More natural, though requiring a little more thought, is to build fantasies from who you already are. That's what this chapter is about.
Your vanilla sexuality is a fantastic foundation for authentic but deeply kinky Femdom. This shouldn't be too much of a surprise because most male submissive fantasies are just an exaggeration of what women already do.
Don't believe me?
Take an example. A popular (but not universal) male kink is for "teasing and denial"
In Teasing and Denial (T&D) she leads him on, then denies him orgasm.
Only a minority of - usually young - women do this deliberately. In the UK we call them "prick teases", though "ruthless flirt" would be a fairer term. Sometimes they get an erotic buzz from this, other times it's the attention or pampering they enjoy. (There's nothing inherently wrong with this sort of behaviour. If the men stick around, it's because they're enjoying it.)
However, a majority of women have done this truly without intending to, or even being aware of it. You may be on a date enjoying kissing or petting, he thinks this is the lead up to sex. You may be the grateful beneficiary of practical help, he thinks he's seducing you. Or perhaps you enjoy an active social life with friends of both sexes, but occasionally have to distance yourself when a male friend becomes frisky.
Deliberate or accidental, it doesn't matter. Men, young men especially, live in a crazy sexualised world. The male (entirely subjective) experience of courting is to be continually led on and repulsed, teased and denied. We don't mind really, because it's so very exciting... and because some of us get a secret satisfaction from submitting to it.
That heady mix of excitement and submission, and the association with youth and attractive females, easily produce a fantasy where the teasing and denial go further. For instance, she enjoys her sexual penetration but makes him withdraw before he can come, or she toys with his penis until he's ready to ejaculate, then stops...
It's not a kink that females easily empathise with. Fortunately, like your Ancient Roman incarnation, you don't have to. All that matters is that you enjoy your side of the kink.
If you always found flirting fun, and if you've missed it since settling down, then perhaps teasing and denial is actually worth experimenting with. Not only do you get to flirt with your partner, you also get to have your cake and eat it; you get to flirt and have an orgasm while doing it.
That kind of activity is what I call a game. It's like the "sex games" you get in vanilla manuals - the classic Joy of Sex calls it "slow masturbation" - and like the "scenes" you encounter in BDSM culture. You are deliberately setting out to tease and deny him (at least for a little while). You're calling the shots, and he's quite possibly tied up. You tease and he pleads.
The problem with games is that they require time, energy, self confidence, and some skill. If your first response isn't "That sounds fun," then it's probably a blend of "How the heck to I make that work?" and "It sounds like a lot of trouble".
That's fine. If you still like the idea of the kink, you can get enjoy it in other less demanding ways.
The easiest is to introduce a rule: He doesn't get to come unless you say so or perhaps doesn't get to come at all, and no pleading (unless you like the idea). You can even enforce this with a prop; there are plenty of reasonably cheap male chastity devices on the market at the moment (see later). Now, if you like, you can make love "business as usual", totally mutual and spontaneous, except that for that rule.
So, you're making love with a man who isn't allowed to come... Or better yet is in a chastity device. Might you be tempted to tease him a little bit? A caress here, a taunt there? "Is that nice? What a shame you can't put your cock there..." Because you're both doing something else, in this case making love, you have the space to also enjoy dipping into the game.
Another approach to teasing and denial is through service.
Service means him actually performing tasks you'd want him to do anyway. Licking your boots doesn't count as a service, licking between them does, as does cleaning the room and doing the household chores. The thing about service is that your slave can only do as he's told; he needs a positive instruction in order to come. Denial is the default.
So, if your slave performs an erotic service with little hope of an orgasm, then that's still teasing and denial. You can get your back rubbed, enjoy oral sex... whatever, all with his frustration to add spice.
Just as with a rule, service can also give you the space to actively play a T&D game. The service doesn't even need to be erotic! If you enjoyed the long drawn out game of real life flirting, then you can do the same with your slave. Set him a mundane chore, and flirt outrageously and physically while enjoying the sense of security that comes from complete control.
Now, what if you're not interested - excited - by teasing or denying your slave? It's still possible that you might enjoy not being responsible for his orgasm.
For example, there may be times of the month when you enjoy erotic play, but not penetration, or find regular sex a bit too messy. A rule will help here. It's also possible that you enjoy a back rub with a "happy ending", and once you're sleepy and sated you lose interest in sex: that would be service.
Finally, what if teasing and denial doesn't excite you, and you are always happy for him to have an orgasm, but it's still a major fantasy for him?
If you feel like it, you can still use rules, games and service but, as a perk for him, deliver a dose of teasing and denial.
By perk, I mean something that's extra, that's for your partner's benefit, even if it makes your slave more miserable. It could be something as simple as you wearing stockings, or as complex as a drawn out ritual or game.
Teasing and denial is one of those perks that need not require much effort on your part. For example, you can proceed as normal, but with the rule that he's not allowed to orgasm or plead. If he's in a chastity device, it need not even interfere with normal sex - just make him use a "strap-on" dildo. This has the added benefit that you get to pick the shape and size, and he "lasts" as long as you want him to, and no longer. It's also the ultimate in safe sex... The same goes for service.
Of course, if pleading his part of his fantasy, you have the option to just tell him "tough luck". Or, perhaps you enjoy punishing him for pleading.
So, teasing and denial is like a lot of Femdom. It starts with something quite normal, vanilla flirting or occasional female indifference to male sexual needs, and uses rules, games and services to ramp it up into something wild and kinky.
