Friday 30 December 2022

Two Years in Permanent Chastity (with pictures)

"What anniversary?"
"What anniversary?"

"Do you know what day this is?"

It's Thursday morning, the 29th of December and I'm bringing Xena her coffee in bed.

"No?" she says.

"It's my second anniversary," I say.

"What anniversary?"

 "My... my Neutering Day?"

"Oh," she says. "Not sure about Neutering."

I sigh. Xena just likes things her way, isn't interested in the skin we put on it. But sometimes I need a little certainty.  "What else am I supposed to call this?"

"But it sounds like you can't reverse it."

"Well, I can't can I?"

 "Not really." My wife sips her coffee. "So today I'm going to declutter my wardrobe and I want you to..."

That evening, as I rub Xena's feet, I say, "Can we finish this morning's conversation?"

Xena sighs. "You're being locked another year. We already know that."

"You normally say forever or 'until things change'."

"Yes, that," she says. "Are we done?"

"No," say. "I want to know your expectations."

"You do as I tell you."

"No, not that. I mean..." 

"Go on..."

Now I'm feeling flustered. Neither of us enjoy meta conversations. Quickly, I sum up what the ground rules seem to be: she doesn't want to know about my penis, when it's hard or dripping or whatever... she sometimes likes it when I suffer but doesn't want me to plead or yearn loudly for an orgasm because they are off the table... it's a done deal and I'm supposed to just deal with it... "So, I'm supposed to behave as if..."

"Yes," she says, firmly. "Neutered is the right term, though I probably won't use any term. Anything else?"

"You wondered what was special about two years? Two years is the honeymoon stage, and it doesn't look like we're reverting to 'normal'. Also, the longer something has lasted--"  

"--the longer it's likely to last. Good. Now shut up and put your collar on."

I massage her legs and feet for an hour. Around midnight, she has me kneel at the foot of the bed while she reads. 

Near one o'clock, when I'm just about ready to nod off, she orders me to face the wall. She spends an age using her vibrator while my arousal ebbs and flows in waves of exquisite frustration.

At last, she has me clean the sex toy and orders me to de-collar and come to bed.

As I lie beside her, turned on, wide awake while she breathes softly beside me, I realise I won't ever again make a fuss over how long I've been neutered. Xena's not interested in the passage of time, just the certainty of me remaining sealed in permanent chastity until "something changes".

Which it won't.

So, as promised here, behind the cut are some NSFW images of my chastity device, with evidence of date...

I took the pictures using the Guardian newspaper site to prove the date. Two items of sad news -- that's the downside of using a newspaper -- both easily verifiable.

Surgical Nylon Seals for a Male Chastity Device
Five rivets left!

When I gave Xena the spare rivets, she tossed them into her bedside drawer and forgot about them. I kind of expected to get through the rivets over a year, with longer and longer locked periods. The device is designed to create a slippery slope for vanilla wives. 

However, Xena isn't very vanilla and here I am two years later...


Permanent Chastity Device installed
The device installed!

Over two years, the dye job has faded. I'd asked for it in plain white, so I could colour it myself. Now I wish I'd used a clear coat. It looks like I'll have to unseal for air travel in mid 2023, so I'll probably refresh the colour then.

Apart from the dye -- which is my fault -- the Custom Chastity Saint has caused no problems whatsoever in the entire two years, despite me not really testing it before installing it.

Custom Chastity don't have this version for sale on their site, but you can contact Lady Fox an ask for one like mine...

Careful what you wish for!
Careful what you wish for!


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3 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing all of this. I'm curious how fulfilling you're finding this though, as Xena doesn't seem as engaged in either your chastity or your submission (at least as much as you might like).

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    1. This is such a good question, it deserves a long answer... perhaps on my substack.

      The short answer is that it is very fulfilling because, though Xena is engaged neither in my chastity nor my submission as processes or games (in the broadest sense), she is absolutely insistent on them.

      When asked, she agreed that she would love to be able just to send me off to a clinic to be "done", as in fitted with a device I couldn't remove without a waiting list, counselling and a spousal veto.

      Meanwhile, she just expects obedience as the default, and exploits my submission ruthlessly to get things her way. Though it pings her sadism, punishment from her is always actual punishment, intended to modify my behaviour, or at least to prevent it from slipping.

      The effect is as if I had entered a parallel universe where she genuinely owned me.

      So, yes, I'd love to have more playful kink going on, and perhaps a bit of teasing. However, what I have as a baseline is incredible and deeply spiritually and sexually satisfying.






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  2. Thank you for your thoughtful response, I'm very happy for you.

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