It's odd. We're coming up to the 8th anniversary of our FLR and I don't think Xena has any desire to make an occasion of it.
It's the same with my (mechanically) permanent chastity device: she just treats it as if I had had the coil fitted - a good and necessary thing, but not particularly worthy of discussion.
In general, she isn't interested in kink.
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| "I can't imagine going back..." |
That used to make me feel insecure until she made it very clear that not only does she like kink, but that it's mandatory; it's her preferred mode of intimacy and domesticity: "I can't imagine going back." And later, "You don't have any choice."
My wife clearly likes being in control, likes having service on demand, likes punishing me, and has a well-developed sadistic streak that turns her on.
Xena is also the one who pushed the envelope.
Given a little control, she took complete control. Offered me in chastity as an option, she turned it into a default. She's the one who, early on, said "I prefer you this way..." and later "Would you consider always doing it like this?"
Which is why the disinterest is hot.
Though she is my loving wife, best friend, and preferred companion, she is also my mistress. Parts of our relationship play out as if she simply owned me.
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| "They do a sealed version. Make an appointment." |
With the permanent chastity device, it's as if she looked up from her newspaper and casually remarked, "Oh look, they do a sealed version now. I think we'll get you fitted for one. Ring the shop tomorrow and make an appointment for yourself."
And I could only say, "Yes, mistress."
Then perhaps months later, she'd notice the same advert and say, "Oh, did you get that device installed?"
And I'd say, "Yes, mistress."
And she'd go back to reading her paper.
The entire FLR is like that.
On a gut level, Xena just assumes that's the natural order. She's in charge and I'm not. Big chunks of our relationship centre on her, not me.
I don't have any choice, so why would the anniversary of my submission matter? Anyway, I don't belong in the centre, that spot belongs to her.
That's hot.
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Your wife seems very dominant and although she gives the impression she's not enthusiastic about being in control. I suspect she embraces and takes great pleasure in expressing her sadistic side.
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On the contrary, she's very enthusiastic about being in control, and in expressing her sadistic side. However, she's not interested in the mechanics of it all. She just wants that to happen without her having to fuss. So, for example, she has "admitted" that she would be very happy if she could just send me off to a clinic have a truly permanent device fitted. Less extremely, she's likes the idea of bondage devices that just snap shut without her intervention. She wants to be able to beat me without having to fiddle with chains and locks.
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