I'd worn my Custom Chastity Saint 24/7 for eleven and a half months, with no breaks for "inspection" or whatever. There'd also been no teasing or ruined orgasms.
And this was my first orgasm in nearly a year! I opted to treat my dick with care and avoid bruising. Rather than pumping away like a lunatic, I used a vibrator on the head.
Semen isn't hydraulics, orgasms aren't steam. Once you are beyond a couple of weeks, increased abstinence doesn't grant you an increasingly powerful orgasm.
However, the build up was delightful, the climax intense -
- then intensely painful.
The inside of my penis stung like hell and continued to sting even after I peed. My penis puffed up as if it had actually been stung. My pubic triangle flushed red and started to dry and flake and stayed that way for weeks.
I also, shortly after, caught a low grade virus and my mood swung to a low.
This was all so remarkable, I ended up googling, "Can you be allergic to your own semen?"
The horrific answer is, "Yes, probably."
Strangely, there isn't a lot of research around this, and the only way of being sure is to get your doctor to arrange a skin test for you, in which you basically get stabbed with needles steeped in your own cum... I'm really not sure about having that conversation, especially because it seems it's our very kinky lifestyle that may have stripped away the desensitisation!
However. there is enough research to merit a Wikipedia entry, and an odd POIS subreddit where the chatter is remarkably similar to the no-fap communities.
Wikipedia gives one medical description as:
- One or more of the following symptoms: sensation of a flu-like state, extreme fatigue or exhaustion, weakness of musculature, experiences of feverishness or perspiration, mood disturbances and / or irritability, memory difficulties, concentration problems, incoherent speech, congestion of nose or watery nose, itching eyes;
- all symptoms occur immediately (e.g., seconds), soon (e.g., minutes), or within a few hours after ejaculation that is initiated by coitus, and / or masturbation, and / or spontaneously (e.g., during sleep);
- symptoms occur always or nearly always, e.g., in more than 90% of ejaculation events;
- most of these symptoms last for about 2–7 days; and
- disappear spontaneously.[1]
However, the POIS community will tell you of lots of other symptoms and progressions.
All these symptoms were familiar to me from back when I used to masturbate regularly, and from my youth when I was very sexually active indeed. However, back then, I was having orgasms so frequently as to obscure cause and effect - like being a heavy drinker and always having a headache.
The puffy penis, I'd always put down to mild bruising - but this time I used a vibrator.
The red pubic triangle, I'd always assumed was sweat rash... I've had some kind of eczema there since I was 18, when I started having regular sex - I can date that because I remember going to the doctor with it.
The virus... I've had a runny nose since adolescence.
The mood... I've tended towards being low since adolescence.
The stinging... I think that was new. However, it's only in the last few years that I've had long periods of abstinence.
Talking of which, despite the lack of orgasms and only sporadic sexual engagement from Xena, the last year has been suspiciously healthy and cheerful, and my pubic triangle was a normal colour, so much so that the sudden switch to red was a shock.
So where does that leave me, assuming I really am allergic to my own semen?
Well, on the upside, we now have pretty ultimate chastity security. If I cheat and get off, my pubic triangle literally flags up my transgression. Xena finds this very amusing.
On the health side, there's an intersection between my kink and my health. There are possibly good reasons for not having orgasms. Xena also finds that amusing.
On the weird side... I'm left wondering if my fetish isn't an instinctive response to something my body knew that my mind didn't.
And I also wonder how many of my fellow chastity fetishists are also in the same boat. It's a commonplace that breaking chastity causes mood swings. I wonder what else people are experiencing.
So next time I come, I'm going to keep a close eye on any symptoms. That's supposed to be in two weeks time, but with Xena I can never tell...
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